These eyes of mine have seen a lot, these hands of mine have touched a lot, this heart of mine has felt a lot, and this mind of mine has thought a lot.
Ever just get to a place in life where you're doing everything you can to excel in your career, to keep your relationships flourishing, to do what makes you happy, and you're still left with the feeling of "man, there's got to be more to life than this."
Well, that's precisely the place im in. It sort've causes you to question everything, even the things you were once 1000% sure about. It causes you to question whether you are pursuing the right career path, whether your relationships are what's right for you, and whether what you're doing for your leisure is truly allowing you to relax and free yourself. The ultimate questions I'm left with is, "what more should I be doing" or "what should I be doing differently"?
I know when I get to these places I need to take the time to reflect on what I once "knew" to be true, and continue to have faith, believe, and have hope that what I dreamed of will come to pass, but sometimes, I think, "what's the point"? What's going to happen is going to happen whether I believe in it or not, right? Sometimes it seems like keeping the faith and believing is the most difficult thing, especially when everything around me is telling me it's not going to happen.
Im not here to conjure solutions because I already know the solutions. I need to be still, trust, wait, and believe, but holding on to things that seem to be so dead has a way of stretching you to the limit.
I'm at the end of my rope, but im tyeing a knot and will hold on for dear life until my breakthrough comes. I will get through this, and I can handle this!
Walking by faith and not by sight.
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